Chapter
11
Connie
was sorting out one of the Wragby lumber rooms. There
were several: the house was a warren, and the family
never sold anything. Sir Geoffery's father had liked
pictures and Sir Geoffery's mother had liked cinquecento
furniture. Sir Geoffery himself had liked old carved oak
chests, vestry chests. So it went on through the
generations. Clifford collected very modern pictures, at
very moderate prices.
So
in the lumber room there were bad Sir Edwin Landseers
and pathetic William Henry Hunt birds' nests: and other
Academy stuff, enough to frighten the daughter of an R.A.
She determined to look through it one day, and clear it
all. And the grotesque furniture interested her.
Wrapped
up carefully to preserve it from damage and dry-rot was
the old family cradle, of rosewood. She had to unwrap
it, to look at it. It had a certain charm: she looked at
it a longtime.
`It's
thousand pities it won't be called for,' sighed Mrs
Bolton, who was helping. `Though cradles like that are
out of date nowadays.'
`It
might be called for. I might have a child,' said Connie
casually, as if saying she might have a new hat.
`You
mean if anything happened to Sir Clifford!' stammered
Mrs Bolton.
`No!
I mean as things are. It's only muscular paralysis with
Sir Clifford---it doesn't affect him,' said Connie,
lying as naturally as breathing.
Clifford
had put the idea into her head. He had said: `Of course
I may have a child yet. I'm not really mutilated at all.
The potency may easily come back, even if the muscles of
the hips and legs are paralysed. And then the seed may
be transferred.'
He
really felt, when he had his periods of energy and
worked so hard at the question of the mines, as if his
sexual potency were returning. Connie had looked at him
in terror. But she was quite quick-witted enough to use
his suggestion for her own preservation. For she would
have a child if she could: but not his.
Mrs
Bolton was for a moment breathless, flabbergasted. Then
she didn't believe it: she saw in it a ruse. Yet doctors
could do such things nowadays. They might sort of graft
seed.
`Well,
my Lady, I only hope and pray you may. It would be
lovely for you: and for everybody. My word, a child in
Wragby, what a difference it would make!'
`Wouldn't
it!' said Connie.
And
she chose three R. A. pictures of sixty years ago, to
send to the Duchess of Shortlands for that lady's next
charitable bazaar. She was called `the bazaar duchess',
and she always asked all the county to send things for
her to sell. She would be delighted with three framed R.
A.s. She might even call, on the strength of them. How
furious Clifford was when she called!
But
oh my dear! Mrs Bolton was thinking to herself. Is it
Oliver Mellors' child you're preparing us for? Oh my
dear, that would be a Tevershall baby in the
Wragby cradle, my word! Wouldn't shame it, neither!
Among
other monstrosities in this lumber room was a largish
blackjapanned box, excellently and ingeniously made some
sixty or seventy years ago, and fitted with every
imaginable object. On top was a concentrated toilet set:
brushes, bottles, mirrors, combs, boxes, even three
beautiful little razors in safety sheaths, shaving-bowl
and all. Underneath came a sort of escritoire
outfit: blotters, pens, ink-bottles, paper, envelopes,
memorandum books: and then a perfect sewing-outfit, with
three different sized scissors, thimbles, needles, silks
and cottons, darning egg, all of the very best quality
and perfectly finished. Then there was a little medicine
store, with bottles labelled Laudanum, Tincture of
Myrrh, Ess. Cloves and so on: but empty. Everything was
perfectly new, and the whole thing, when shut up, was as
big as a small, but fat weekend bag. And inside, it
fitted together like a puzzle. The bottles could not
possibly have spilled: there wasn't room.
The
thing was wonderfully made and contrived, excellent
craftsmanship of the Victorian order. But somehow it was
monstrous. Some Chatterley must even have felt it, for
the thing had never been used. It had a peculiar
soullessness.
Yet
Mrs Bolton was thrilled.
`Look
what beautiful brushes, so expensive, even the shaving
brushes, three perfect ones! No! and those scissors!
They're the best that money could buy. Oh, I call it
lovely!'
`Do
you?' said Connie. `Then you have it.'
`Oh
no, my Lady!'
`Of
course! It will only lie here till Doomsday. If you
won't have it, I'll send it to the Duchess as well as
the pictures, and she doesn't deserve so much. Do have
it!'
`Oh,
your Ladyship! Why, I shall never be able to thank you.'
`You
needn't try,' laughed Connie.
And
Mrs Bolton sailed down with the huge and very black box
in her arms, flushing bright pink in her excitement.
Mr
Betts drove her in the trap to her house in the village,
with the box. And she had to have a few friends
in, to show it: the school-mistress, the chemist's wife,
Mrs Weedon the undercashier's wife. They thought it
marvellous. And then started the whisper of Lady
Chatterley's child.
`Wonders'll
never cease!' said Mrs Weedon.
But
Mrs Bolton was convinced, if it did come, it
would be Sir Clifford's child. So there!
Not
long after, the rector said gently to Clifford:
`And
may we really hope for an heir to Wragby? Ah, that would
be the hand of God in mercy, indeed!'
`Well!
We may hope,' said Clifford, with a faint irony,
and at the same time, a certain conviction. He had begun
to believe it really possible it might even be his
child.
Then
one afternoon came Leslie Winter, Squire Winter, as
everybody called him: lean, immaculate, and seventy: and
every inch a gentleman, as Mrs Bolton said to Mrs Betts.
Every millimetre indeed! And with his old-fashioned,
rather haw-haw! manner of speaking, he seemed more out
of date than bag wigs. Time, in her flight, drops these
fine old feathers.
They
discussed the collieries. Clifford's idea was, that his
coal, even the poor sort, could be made into hard
concentrated fuel that would burn at great heat if fed
with certain damp, acidulated air at a fairly strong
pressure. It had long been observed that in a
particularly strong, wet wind the pit-bank burned very
vivid, gave off hardly any fumes, and left a fine powder
of ash, instead of the slow pink gravel.
`But
where will you find the proper engines for burning your
fuel?' asked Winter.
`I'll
make them myself. And I'll use my fuel myself. And I'll
sell electric power. I'm certain I could do it.'
`If
you can do it, then splendid, splendid, my dear boy.
Haw! Splendid! If I can be of any help, I shall be
delighted. I'm afraid I am a little out of date, and my
collieries are like me. But who knows, when I'm gone,
there may be men like you. Splendid! It will employ all
the men again, and you won't have to sell your coal, or
fail to sell it. A splendid idea, and I hope it will be
a success. If I had sons of my own, no doubt they would
have up-to-date ideas for Shipley: no doubt! By the way,
dear boy, is there any foundation to the rumour that we
may entertain hopes of an heir to Wragby?'
`Is
there a rumour?' asked Clifford.
`Well,
my dear boy, Marshall from Fillingwood asked me, that's
all I can say about a rumour. Of course I wouldn't
repeat it for the world, if there were no foundation.'
`Well,
Sir,' said Clifford uneasily, but with strange bright
eyes. `There is a hope. There is a hope.'
Winter
came across the room and wrung Clifford's hand.
`My
dear boy, my dear lad, can you believe what it means to
me, to hear that! And to hear you are working in the
hopes of a son: and that you may again employ every man
at Tevershall. Ah, my boy! to keep up the level of the
race, and to have work waiting for any man who cares to
work!---'
The
old man was really moved.
Next
day Connie was arranging tall yellow tulips in a glass
vase.
`Connie,'
said Clifford, `did you know there was a rumour that you
are going to supply Wragby with a son and heir?'
Connie
felt dim with terror, yet she stood quite still,
touching the flowers.
`No!'
she said. `Is it a joke? Or malice?'
He
paused before he answered:
`Neither,
I hope. I hope it may be a prophecy.'
Connie
went on with her flowers.
`I
had a letter from Father this morning,' She said. `He
wants to know if I am aware he has accepted Sir
Alexander Cooper's Invitation for me for July and
August, to the Villa Esmeralda in Venice.'
`July
and August?' said Clifford.
`Oh,
I wouldn't stay all that time. Are you sure you wouldn't
come?'
`I
won't travel abroad,' said Clifford promptly. She took
her flowers to the window.
`Do
you mind if I go?' she said. You know it was promised,
for this summer.
`For
how long would you go?'
`Perhaps
three weeks.'
There
was silence for a time.
`Well,'
said Clifford slowly, and a little gloomily. `I suppose
I could stand it for three weeks: if I were absolutely
sure you'd want to come back.'
`I
should want to come back,' she said, with a quiet
simplicity, heavy with conviction. She was thinking of
the other man.
Clifford
felt her conviction, and somehow he believed her, he
believed it was for him. He felt immensely relieved,
joyful at once.
`In
that case,' he said,
`I
think it would be all right, don't you?'
`I
think so,' she said.
`You'd
enjoy the change?' She looked up at him with strange
blue eyes.
`I
should like to see Venice again,' she said, `and to
bathe from one of the shingle islands across the lagoon.
But you know I loathe the Lido! And I don't fancy I
shall like Sir Alexander Cooper and Lady Cooper. But if
Hilda is there, and we have a gondola of our own: yes,
it will be rather lovely. I do wish you'd come.'
She
said it sincerely. She would so love to make him happy,
in these ways.
`Ah,
but think of me, though, at the Gare du Nord: at Calais
quay!'
`But
why not? I see other men carried in litter-chairs, who
have been wounded in the war. Besides, we'd motor all
the way.'
`We
should need to take two men.'
`Oh
no! We'd manage with Field. There would always be
another man there.'
But
Clifford shook his head.
`Not
this year, dear! Not this year! Next year probably I'll
try.'
She
went away gloomily. Next year! What would next year
bring? She herself did not really want to go to Venice:
not now, now there was the other man. But she was going
as a sort of discipline: and also because, if she had a
child, Clifford could think she had a lover in Venice.
It
was already May, and in June they were supposed to
start. Always these arrangements! Always one's life
arranged for one! Wheels that worked one and drove one,
and over which one had no real control!
It
was May, but cold and wet again. A cold wet May, good
for corn and hay! Much the corn and hay matter nowadays!
Connie had to go into Uthwaite, which was their little
town, where the Chatterleys were still the
Chatterleys. She went alone, Field driving her.
In
spite of May and a new greenness, the country was
dismal. It was rather chilly, and there was smoke on the
rain, and a certain sense of exhaust vapour in the air.
One just had to live from one's resistance. No wonder
these people were ugly and tough.
The
car ploughed uphill through the long squalid straggle of
Tevershall, the blackened brick dwellings, the black
slate roofs glistening their sharp edges, the mud black
with coal-dust, the pavements wet and black. It was as
if dismalness had soaked through and through everything.
The utter negation of natural beauty, the utter negation
of the gladness of life, the utter absence of the
instinct for shapely beauty which every bird and beast
has, the utter death of the human intuitive faculty was
appalling. The stacks of soap in the grocers' shops, the
rhubarb and lemons in the greengrocers! the awful hats
in the milliners! all went by ugly, ugly, ugly, followed
by the plaster-and-gilt horror of the cinema with its
wet picture announcements, `A Woman's Love!', and the
new big Primitive chapel, primitive enough in its stark
brick and big panes of greenish and raspberry glass in
the windows. The Wesleyan chapel, higher up, was of
blackened brick and stood behind iron railings and
blackened shrubs. The Congregational chapel, which
thought itself superior, was built of rusticated
sandstone and had a steeple, but not a very high one.
Just beyond were the new school buildings, expensivink
brick, and gravelled playground inside iron railings,
all very imposing, and fixing the suggestion of a chapel
and a prison. Standard Five girls were having a singing
lesson, just finishing the la-me-doh-la exercises and
beginning a `sweet children's song'. Anything more
unlike song, spontaneous song, would be impossible to
imagine: a strange bawling yell that followed the
outlines of a tune. It was not like savages: savages
have subtle rhythms. It was not like animals: animals mean
something when they yell. It was like nothing on earth,
and it was called singing. Connie sat and listened with
her heart in her boots, as Field was filling petrol.
What could possibly become of such a people, a people in
whom the living intuitive faculty was dead as nails, and
only queer mechanical yells and uncanny will-power
remained?
A
coal-cart was coming downhill, clanking in the rain.
Field started upwards, past the big but weary-looking
drapers and clothing shops, the post-office, into the
little market-place of forlorn space, where Sam Black
was peering out of the door of the Sun, that called
itself an inn, not a pub, and where the commercial
travellers stayed, and was bowing to Lady Chatterley's
car.
The
church was away to the left among black trees. The car
slid on downhill, past the Miners' Arms. It had already
passed the Wellington, the Nelson, the Three Tuns, and
the Sun, now it passed the Miners' Arms, then the
Mechanics' Hall, then the new and almost gaudy Miners'
Welfare and so, past a few new `villas', out into the
blackened road between dark hedges and dark green
fields, towards Stacks Gate.
Tevershall!
That was Tevershall! Merrie England! Shakespeare's
England! No, but the England of today, as Connie had
realized since she had come to live in it. It was
producing a new race of mankind, over-conscious in the
money and social and political side, on the spontaneous,
intuitive side dead, but dead. Half-corpses, all of
them: but with a terrible insistent consciousness in the
other half. There was something uncanny and underground
about it all. It was an under-world. And quite
incalculable. How shall we understand the reactions in
half-corpses? When Connie saw the great lorries full of
steel-workers from Sheffield, weird, distorted smallish
beings like men, off for an excursion to Matlock, her
bowels fainted and she thought: Ah God, what has man
done to man? What have the leaders of men been doing to
their fellow men? They have reduced them to less than
humanness; and now there can be no fellowship any more!
It is just a nightmare.
She
felt again in a wave of terror the grey, gritty
hopelessness of it all. With such creatures for the
industrial masses, and the upper classes as she knew
them, there was no hope, no hope any more. Yet she was
wanting a baby, and an heir to Wragby! An heir to Wragby!
She shuddered with dread.
Yet
Mellors had come out of all this!---Yes, but he was as
apart from it all as she was. Even in him there was no
fellowship left. It was dead. The fellowship was dead.
There was only apartness and hopelessness, as far as all
this was concerned. And this was England, the vast bulk
of England: as Connie knew, since she had motored from
the centre of it.
The
car was rising towards Stacks Gate. The rain was holding
off, and in the air came a queer pellucid gleam of May.
The country rolled away in long undulations, south
towards the Peak, east towards Mansfield and Nottingham.
Connie was travelling South.
As
she rose on to the high country, she could see on her
left, on a height above the rolling land, the shadowy,
powerful bulk of Warsop Castle, dark grey, with below it
the reddish plastering of miners' dwellings, newish, and
below those the plumes of dark smoke and white steam
from the great colliery which put so many thousand
pounds per annum into the pockets of the Duke and the
other shareholders. The powerful old castle was a ruin,
yet it hung its bulk on the low sky-line, over the black
plumes and the white that waved on the damp air below.
A
turn, and they ran on the high level to Stacks Gate.
Stacks Gate, as seen from the highroad, was just a huge
and gorgeous new hotel, the Coningsby Arms, standing red
and white and gilt in barbarous isolation off the road.
But if you looked, you saw on the left rows of handsome
`modern' dwellings, set down like a game of dominoes,
with spaces and gardens, a queer game of dominoes that
some weird `masters' were playing on the surprised
earth. And beyond these blocks of dwellings, at the
back, rose all the astonishing and frightening overhead
erections of a really modern mine, chemical works and
long galleries, enormous, and of shapes not before known
to man. The head-stock and pit-bank of the mine itself
were insignificant among the huge new installations. And
in front of this, the game of dominoes stood forever in
a sort of surprise, waiting to be played.
This
was Stacks Gate, new on the face of the earth, since the
war. But as a matter of fact, though even Connie did not
know it, downhill half a mile below the `hotel' was old
Stacks Gate, with a little old colliery and blackish old
brick dwellings, and a chapel or two and a shop or two
and a little pub or two.
But
that didn't count any more. The vast plumes of smoke and
vapour rose from the new works up above, and this was
now Stacks Gate: no chapels, no pubs, even no shops.
Only the great works', which are the modern Olympia with
temples to all the gods; then the model dwellings: then
the hotel. The hotel in actuality was nothing but a
miners' pub though it looked first-classy.
Even
since Connie's arrival at Wragby this new place had
arisen on the face of the earth, and the model dwellings
had filled with riff-raff drifting in from anywhere, to
poach Clifford's rabbits among other occupations.
The
car ran on along the uplands, seeing the rolling county
spread out. The county! It had once been a proud and
lordly county. In front, looming again and hanging on
the brow of the sky-line, was the huge and splendid bulk
of Chadwick Hall, more window than wall, one of the most
famous Elizabethan houses. Noble it stood alone above a
great park, but out of date, passed over. It was still
kept up, but as a show place. `Look how our ancestors
lorded it!'
That
was the past. The present lay below. God alone knows
where the future lies. The car was already turning,
between little old blackened miners' cottages, to
descend to Uthwaite. And Uthwaite, on a damp day, was
sending up a whole array of smoke plumes and steam, to
whatever gods there be. Uthwaite down in the valley,
with all the steel threads of the railways to Sheffield
drawn through it, and the coal-mines and the steel-works
sending up smoke and glare from long tubes, and the
pathetic little corkscrew spire of the church, that is
going to tumble down, still pricking the fumes, always
affected Connie strangely. It was an old market-town,
centre of the dales. One of the chief inns was the
Chatterley Arms. There, in Uthwaite, Wragby was known as
Wragby, as if it were a whole place, not just a house,
as it was to outsiders: Wragby Hall, near Tevershall:
Wragby, a `seat'.
The
miners' cottages, blackened, stood flush on the
pavement, with that intimacy and smallness of colliers'
dwellings over a hundred years old. They lined all the
way. The road had become a street, and as you sank, you
forgot instantly the open, rolling country where the
castles and big houses still dominated, but like ghosts.
Now you were just above the tangle of naked
railway-lines, and foundries and other `works' rose
about you, so big you were only aware of walls. And iron
clanked with a huge reverberating clank, and huge
lorries shook the earth, and whistles screamed.
Yet
again, once you had got right down and into the twisted
and crooked heart of the town, behind the church, you
were in the world of two centuries ago, in the crooked
streets where the Chatterley Arms stood, and the old
pharmacy, streets which used to lead Out to the wild
open world of the castles and stately couchant houses.
But
at the corner a policeman held up his hand as three
lorries loaded with iron rolled past, shaking the poor
old church. And not till the lorries were past could he
salute her ladyship.
So
it was. Upon the old crooked burgess streets hordes of
oldish blackened miners' dwellings crowded, lining the
roads out. And immediately after these came the newer,
pinker rows of rather larger houses, plastering the
valley: the homes of more modern workmen. And beyond
that again, in the wide rolling regions of the castles,
smoke waved against steam, and patch after patch of raw
reddish brick showed the newer mining settlements,
sometimes in the hollows, sometimes gruesomely ugly
along the sky-line of the slopes. And between, in
between, were the tattered remnants of the old coaching
and cottage England, even the England of Robin Hood,
where the miners prowled with the dismalness of
suppressed sporting instincts, when they were not at
work.
England,
my England! But which is my England? The stately
homes of England make good photographs, and create the
illusion of a connexion with the Elizabethans. The
handsome old halls are there, from the days of Good
Queen Anne and Tom Jones. But smuts fall and blacken on
the drab stucco, that has long ceased to be golden. And
one by one, like the stately homes, they were abandoned.
Now they are being pulled down. As for the cottages of
England---there they are---great plasterings of brick
dwellings on the hopeless countryside.
`Now
they are pulling down the stately homes, the Georgian
halls are going. Fritchley, a perfect old Georgian
mansion, was even now, as Connie passed in the car,
being demolished. It was in perfect repair: till the war
the Weatherleys had lived in style there. But now it was
too big, too expensive, and the country had become too
uncongenial. The gentry were departing to pleasanter
places, where they could spend their money without
having to see how it was made.'
This
is history. One England blots out another. The mines had
made the halls wealthy. Now they were blotting them out,
as they had already blotted out the cottages. The
industrial England blots out the agricultural England.
One meaning blots out another. The new England blots out
the old England. And the continuity is not Organic, but
mechanical.
Connie,
belonging to the leisured classes, had clung to the
remnants of the old England. It had taken her years to
realize that it was really blotted out by this
terrifying new and gruesome England, and that the
blotting out would go on till it was complete. Fritchley
was gone, Eastwood was gone, Shipley was going: Squire
Winter's beloved Shipley.
Connie
called for a moment at Shipley. The park gates, at the
back, opened just near the level crossing of the
colliery railway; the Shipley colliery itself stood just
beyond the trees. The gates stood open, because through
the park was a right-of-way that the colliers used. They
hung around the park.
The
car passed the ornamental ponds, in which the colliers
threw their newspapers, and took the private drive to
the house. It stood above, aside, a very pleasant stucco
building from the middle of the eighteenth century. It
had a beautiful alley of yew trees, that had approached
an older house, and the hall stood serenely spread out,
winking its Georgian panes as if cheerfully. Behind,
there were really beautiful gardens.
Connie
liked the interior much better than Wragby. It was much
lighter, more alive, shapen and elegant. The rooms were
panelled with creamy painted panelling, the ceilings
were touched with gilt, and everything was kept in
exquisite order, all the appointments were perfect,
regardless of expense. Even the corridors managed to be
ample and lovely, softly curved and full of life.
But
Leslie Winter was alone. He had adored his house. But
his park was bordered by three of his own collieries. He
had been a generous man in his ideas. He had almost
welcomed the colliers in his park. Had the miners not
made him rich! So, when he saw the gangs of unshapely
men lounging by his ornamental waters---not in the private
part of the park, no, he drew the line there---he would
say: `the miners are perhaps not so ornamental as deer,
but they are far more profitable.'
But
that was in the golden---monetarily---latter half of
Queen Victoria's reign. Miners were then `good working
men'.
Winter
had made this speech, half apologetic, to his guest, the
then Prince of Wales. And the Prince had replied, in his
rather guttural English:
`You
are quite right. If there were coal under Sandringham, I
would open a mine on the lawns, and think it first-rate
landscape gardening. Oh, I am quite willing to exchange
roe-deer for colliers, at the price. Your men are good
men too, I hear.'
But
then, the Prince had perhaps an exaggerated idea of the
beauty of money, and the blessings of industrialism.
However,
the Prince had been a King, and the King had died, and
now there was another King, whose chief function seemed
to be to open soup-kitchens.
And
the good working men were somehow hemming Shipley in.
New mining villages crowded on the park, and the squire
felt somehow that the population was alien. He used to
feel, in a good-natured but quite grand way, lord of his
own domain and of his own colliers. Now, by a subtle
pervasion of the new spirit, he had somehow been pushed
out. It was he who did not belong any more. There was no
mistaking it. The mines, the industry, had a will of its
own, and this will was against the gentleman-owner. All
the colliers took part in the will, and it was hard to
live up against it. It either shoved you out of the
place, or out of life altogether.
Squire
Winter, a soldier, had stood it out. But he no longer
cared to walk in the park after dinner. He almost hid,
indoors. Once he had walked, bare-headed, and in his
patent-leather shoes and purple silk socks, with Connie
down to the gate, talking to her in his well-bred rather
haw-haw fashion. But when it came to passing the little
gangs of colliers who stood and stared without either
salute or anything else, Connie felt how the lean,
well-bred old man winced, winced as an elegant antelope
stag in a cage winces from the vulgar stare. The
colliers were not personally hostile: not at all.
But their spirit was cold, and shoving him out. And,
deep down, there was a profound grudge. They `worked for
him'. And in their ugliness, they resented his elegant,
well-groomed, well-bred existence. `Who's he!' It was
the difference they resented.
And
somewhere, in his secret English heart, being a good
deal of a soldier, he believed they were right to resent
the difference. He felt himself a little in the wrong,
for having all the advantages. Nevertheless he
represented a system, and he would not be shoved out.
Except
by death. Which came on him soon after Connie's call,
suddenly. And he remembered Clifford handsomely in his
will.
The
heirs at once gave out the order for the demolishing of
Shipley. It cost too much to keep up. No one would live
there. So it was broken up. The avenue of yews was cut
down. The park was denuded of its timber, and divided
into lots. It was near enough to Uthwaite. In the
strange, bald desert of this still-one-more
no-man's-land, new little streets of semi-detacheds were
run up, very desirable! The Shipley Hall Estate!
Within
a year of Connie's last call, it had happened. There
stood Shipley Hall Estate, an array of red-brick
semi-detached `villas' in new streets. No one would have
dreamed that the stucco hall had stood there twelve
months before.
But
this is a later stage of King Edward's landscape
gardening, the sort that has an ornamental coal-mine on
the lawn.
One
England blots out another. The England of the Squire
Winters and the Wragby Halls was gone, dead. The
blotting out was only not yet complete.
What
would come after? Connie could not imagine. She could
only see the new brick streets spreading into the
fields, the new erections rising at the collieries, the
new girls in their silk stockings, the new collier lads
lounging into the Pally or the Welfare. The younger
generation were utterly unconscious of the old England.
There was a gap in the continuity of consciousness,
almost American: but industrial really. What next?
Connie
always felt there was no next. She wanted to hide her
head in the sand: or, at least, in the bosom of a living
man.
The
world was so complicated and weird and gruesome! The
common people were so many, and really so terrible. So
she bought as she was going home, and saw the colliers
trailing from the pits, grey-black, distorted, one
shoulder higher than the other, slurring their heavy
ironshod boots. Underground grey faces, whites of eyes
rolling, necks cringing from the pit roof, shoulders Out
of shape. Men! Men! Alas, in some ways patient and good
men. In other ways, non-existent. Something that men should
have was bred and killed out of them. Yet they were men.
They begot children. One might bear a child to them.
Terrible, terrible thought! They were good and kindly.
But they were only half, Only the grey half of a human
being. As yet, they were `good'. But even that was the
goodness of their halfness. Supposing the dead in them
ever rose up! But no, it was too terrible to think of.
Connie was absolutely afraid of the industrial masses.
They seemed so weird to her. A life with utterly
no beauty in it, no intuition, always `in the pit'.
Children
from such men! Oh God, oh God!
Yet
Mellors had come from such a father. Not quite. Forty
years had made a difference, an appalling difference in
manhood. The iron and the coal had eaten deep into the
bodies and souls of the men.
Incarnate
ugliness, and yet alive! What would become of them all?
Perhaps with the passing of the coal they would
disappear again, off the face of the earth. They had
appeared out of nowhere in their thousands, when the
coal had called for them. Perhaps they were only weird
fauna of the coal-seams. Creatures of another reality,
they were elementals, serving the elements of coal, as
the metal-workers were elementals, serving the element
of iron. Men not men, but animas of coal and iron and
clay. Fauna of the elements, carbon, iron, silicon:
elementals. They had perhaps some of the weird, inhuman
beauty of minerals, the lustre of coal, the weight and
blueness and resistance of iron, the transparency of
glass. Elemental creatures, weird and distorted, of the
mineral world! They belonged to the coal, the iron, the
clay, as fish belong to the sea and worms to dead wood.
The anima of mineral disintegration!
Connie
was glad to be home, to bury her head in the sand. She
was glad even to babble to Clifford. For her fear of the
mining and iron Midlands affected her with a queer
feeling that went all over her, like influenza.
`Of
course I had to have tea in Miss Bentley's shop,' she
said.
`Really!
Winter would have given you tea.'
`Oh
yes, but I daren't disappoint Miss Bentley.' Miss
Bentley was a shallow old maid with a rather large nose
and romantic disposition who served tea with a careful
intensity worthy of a sacrament.
`Did
she ask after me?' said Clifford.
`Of
course!---. May I ask your Ladyship how Sir
Clifford is!---I believe she ranks you even higher than
Nurse Cavell!'
`And
I suppose you said I was blooming.'
`Yes!
And she looked as rapt as if I had said the heavens had
opened to you. I said if she ever came to Tevershall she
was to come to see you.'
`Me!
Whatever for! See me!'
`Why
yes, Clifford. You can't be so adored without making
some slight return. Saint George of Cappadocia was
nothing to you, in her eyes.'
`And
do you think she'll come?'
`Oh,
she blushed! and looked quite beautiful for a moment,
poor thing! Why don't men marry the women who would
really adore them?'
`The
women start adoring too late. But did she say she'd
come?'
`Oh!'
Connie imitated the breathless Miss Bentley, `your
Ladyship, if ever I should dare to presume!'
`Dare
to presume! how absurd! But I hope to God she won't turn
up. And how was her tea?'
`Oh,
Lipton's and very strong. But Clifford, do you
realize you are the Roman de la rose of Miss
Bentley and lots like her?'
`I'm
not flattered, even then.'
`They
treasure up every one of your pictures in the
illustrated papers, and probably pray for you every
night. It's rather wonderful.'
She
went upstairs to change.
That
evening he said to her:
`You
do think, don't you, that there is something eternal in
marriage?'
She
looked at him.
`But
Clifford, you make eternity sound like a lid or a long,
long chain that trailed after one, no matter how far one
went.'
He
looked at her, annoyed.
`What
I mean,' he said, `is that if you go to Venice, you
won't go in the hopes of some love affair that you can
take au grand sérieux, will you?'
`A
love affair in Venice au grand sérieux? No. I
assure you! No, I'd never take a love affair in Venice
more than au très petit sérieux.'
She
spoke with a queer kind of contempt. He knitted his
brows, looking at her.
Coming
downstairs in the morning, she found the keeper's dog
Flossie sitting in the corridor outside Clifford's room,
and whimpering very faintly.
`Why,
Flossie!' she said softly. `What are you doing here?'
And
she quietly opened Clifford's door. Clifford was sitting
up in bed, with the bed-table and typewriter pushed
aside, and the keeper was standing at attention at the
foot of the bed. Flossie ran in. With a faint gesture of
head and eyes, Mellors ordered her to the door again,
and she slunk out.
`Oh,
good morning, Clifford!' Connie said. `I didn't know you
were busy.' Then she looked at the keeper, saying good
morning to him. He murmured his reply, looking at her as
if vaguely. But she felt a whiff of passion touch her,
from his mere presence.
`Did
I interrupt you, Clifford? I'm sorry.'
`No,
it's nothing of any importance.'
She
slipped out of the room again, and up to the blue
boudoir on the first floor. She sat in the window, and
saw him go down the drive, with his curious, silent
motion, effaced. He had a natural sort of quiet
distinction, an aloof pride, and also a certain look of
frailty. A hireling! One of Clifford's hirelings! `The
fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in
ourselves, that we are underlings.'
Was
he an underling? Was he? What did he think of her?
It
was a sunny day, and Connie was working in the garden,
and Mrs Bolton was helping her. For some reason, the two
women had drawn together, in one of the unaccountable
flows and ebbs of sympathy that exist between people.
They were pegging down carnations, and putting in small
plants for the summer. It was work they both liked.
Connie especially felt a delight in putting the soft
roots of young plants into a soft black puddle, and
cradling them down. On this spring morning she felt a
quiver in her womb too, as if the sunshine had touched
it and made it happy.
`It
is many years since you lost your husband?' she said to
Mrs Bolton as she took up another little plant and laid
it in its hole.
`Twenty-three!'
said Mrs Bolton, as she carefully separated the young
columbines into single plants. `Twenty-three years since
they brought him home.'
Connie's
heart gave a lurch, at the terrible finality of it.
`Brought him home!'
`Why
did he get killed, do you think?' she asked. `He was
happy with you?'
It
was a woman's question to a woman. Mrs Bolton put aside
a strand of hair from her face, with the back of her
hand.
`I
don't know, my Lady! He sort of wouldn't give in to
things: he wouldn't really go with the rest. And then he
hated ducking his head for anything on earth. A sort of
obstinacy, that gets itself killed. You see he didn't
really care. I lay it down to the pit. He ought never to
have been down pit. But his dad made him go down, as a
lad; and then, when you're over twenty, it's not very
easy to come out.'
`Did
he say he hated it?'
`Oh
no! Never! He never said he hated anything. He just made
a funny face. He was one of those who wouldn't take
care: like some of the first lads as went off so blithe
to the war and got killed right away. He wasn't really
wezzle-brained. But he wouldn't care. I used to say to
him: "You care for nought nor nobody!" But he
did! The way he sat when my first baby was born,
motionless, and the sort of fatal eyes he looked at me
with, when it was over! I had a bad time, but I had to
comfort him. "It's all right, lad, it's all
right!" I said to him. And he gave me a look, and
that funny sort of smile. He never said anything. But I
don't believe he had any right pleasure with me at
nights after; he'd never really let himself go. I used
to say to him: Oh, let thysen go, lad!---I'd talk broad
to him sometimes. And he said nothing. But he wouldn't
let himself go, or he couldn't. He didn't want me to
have any more children. I always blamed his mother, for
letting him in th' room. He'd no right t'ave been there.
Men makes so much more of things than they should, once
they start brooding.'
`Did
he mind so much?' said Connie in wonder.
`Yes,
he sort of couldn't take it for natural, all that pain.
And it spoilt his pleasure in his bit of married love. I
said to him: If I don't care, why should you? It's my
look-out!---But all he'd ever say was: It's not right!'
`Perhaps
he was too sensitive,' said Connie.
`That's
it! When you come to know men, that's how they are: too
sensitive in the wrong place. And I believe, unbeknown
to himself he hated the pit, just hated it. He looked so
quiet when he was dead, as if he'd got free. He was such
a nice-looking lad. It just broke my heart to see him,
so still and pure looking, as if he'd wanted to
die. Oh, it broke my heart, that did. But it was the
pit.'
She
wept a few bitter tears, and Connie wept more. It was a
warm spring day, with a perfume of earth and of yellow
flowers, many things rising to bud, and the garden still
with the very sap of sunshine.
`It
must have been terrible for you!' said Connie.
`Oh,
my Lady! I never realized at first. I could only say: Oh
my lad, what did you want to leave me for!---That was
all my cry. But somehow I felt he'd come back.'
`But
he didn't want to leave you,' said Connie.
`Oh
no, my Lady! That was only my silly cry. And I kept
expecting him back. Especially at nights. I kept waking
up thinking: Why he's not in bed with me!---It was as if
my feelings wouldn't believe he'd gone. I just
felt he'd have to come back and lie against me,
so I could feel him with me. That was all I wanted, to
feel him there with me, warm. And it took me a thousand
shocks before I knew he wouldn't come back, it took me
years.'
`The
touch of him,' said Connie.
`That's
it, my Lady, the touch of him! I've never got over it to
this day, and never shall. And if there's a heaven
above, he'll be there, and will lie up against me so I
can sleep.'
Connie
glanced at the handsome, brooding face in fear. Another
passionate one out of Tevershall! The touch of him! For
the bonds of love are ill to loose!
`It's
terrible, once you've got a man into your blood!' she
said. `Oh, my Lady! And that's what makes you feel so
bitter. You feel folks wanted him killed. You
feel the pit fair wanted to kill him. Oh, I felt,
if it hadn't been for the pit, an' them as runs the pit,
there'd have been no leaving me. But they all want
to separate a woman and a man, if they're together.'
`If
they're physically together,' said Connie.
`That's
right, my Lady! There's a lot of hard-hearted folks in
the world. And every morning when he got up and went to
th' pit, I felt it was wrong, wrong. But what else could
he do? What can a man do?'
A
queer hate flared in the woman.
`But
can a touch last so long?' Connie asked suddenly. `That
you could feel him so long?'
`Oh
my Lady, what else is there to last? Children grows away
from you. But the man, well! But even that they'd
like to kill in you, the very thought of the touch of
him. Even your own children! Ah well! We might have
drifted apart, who knows. But the feeling's something
different. It's 'appen better never to care. But there,
when I look at women who's never really been warmed
through by a man, well, they seem to me poor doolowls
after all, no matter how they may dress up and gad. No,
I'll abide by my own. I've not much respect for people.' |